Gaia [She/Her]

I hope to see this man at the gay bar so I can instruct unscrupulous people to get a clean lick on a rotten weasel

Mind sharing?

I had a mental breakdown a while ago because I was in denial of my gender identity. I…can’t remember much of it, but it wasn’t great, according to my loved ones. I’m ashamed of it and I wish I could do anything that I felt would properly apologize to them but I’m sure it traumatized many of them, as I’ve done in the past. Before I blacked out, I can remember that mandalas would appear on surfaces my mind wanted me to focus on, twisting and seething with an entrancing psychedelic energy that forced me to focus on that task. I’ve never experienced terror more complete than losing control of both my body and mind, and I’ve almost been trampled in a human stampede, blocking people from trampling others and picking up fallen children off the ground. Life is better now that I have estrogen in my system, but I imagine it would be intolerable otherwise. I hope I can forgive myself one day. I have therapy soon, so that will help a lot.

Hrt and getting abused I guess lol

If the only thing you need to do is test out the different DEs, you should be able to just install each one and use something like lightdm to easily switch between them upon logging out.

Are you more sensitive to stimulation than the average person?

I would recommend reading through the first parts of the arch install tutorial, particularly the network connection through the terminal. If you’re comfortable with that, the archinstall utility makes the rest of the process effortless. I’ve had Manjaro bork itself but not just plain arch.

I am not a therapist or counselor, but know that your worth isn’t based on your physical strength, even as a man. You are valuable, and you don’t need to be able to overpower people to provide for your partner. If it makes you feel better, I trust “weaker” men more because they tend to be humble and treat me with the respect I deserve. Your siblings sound like they’re going to have shallow and unpleasantly interesting lives.

I don’t hate you for it but I did the same thing until Manjaro broke itself

I work at a sex store. Was showing guy products. Asked if he could fuck me. When I say no, asks if he can suck my dick. I’m a trans woman and I get a lot of this sort of thing.

I also had a customer grab my breast after I checked him out at the gas station I worked at.

Maybe it was the time a lady asked me to put in gloves to handle her change, or the time after that when the same lady dropped change on the ground next to her car and ordered me to pick it up for her (this would require me to walk in front of her vehicle).

Maybe it was the time a woman my age walked up to me and asked if I was “one of those transgenders” and when I said yes she asked if I was “one of the angry ones”.

Idk

Everything sucks

I’m kinda weird for this one. I started with arch a long time ago, and ended up distrohopping because I borked my install. Everything else had problems for me eventually, including Ubuntu and Debian. At this stage, if you can figure out iwctl you’re good to go. This enables me to have a system up and running quickly in which I feel I have no restrictions on my abilities as a developer.

archinstall will do proprietary drivers for you, works great for me.